I normally don't do this. I mean I have written a hundred and one venting posts but I don't think I have ever actually posted them. I normally just get it all out and by the time it is over I feel better and just hit the delete button. Who knows how this one will turn out.
Have you ever started a conversation with someone thinking this was a normal "hey how are you" type of thing and withing a matter of seconds are sitting there thinking what the crap? how did that happen? Well I did. Yesterday. I am still not sure how it all started and how it escalated so fast but it did. Oh my goodness it did. Husband and I (monkey too) were driving to go look at a potential car we were thinking of purchasing, alright, no big deal. Well as we were driving my phone rang, I answered it. I should of ignored it. I was talking to husband when it rang...oh well. Well I answered it and it started.
I won't give details. Because I don't think it is fair.
Husband came to my defense. I needed him to do that. I didn't know what to do or say, I just sat there and cried. As husband talked(well he yelled, but not at me...although he did tell me to shut up...I was shocked by that...I laugh about it now. He has NEVER told me to shut up haha) I just sat in my seat and cried. All of this over a cupcake? Wait that can't be what this was about... I don't know.
I am sure this is going to be confusing to anyone who reads it...sorry.
I saw a side of husband I never thought I would see. He was SOOOO angry. He said some things that I don't agree with and every time he did I would nudge him and say don't say that. (Not like he listened) When all was said and done, I broke down again. Husband and I talked about things that we have talked about before but not like that. I saw a side of him that made me love him even more. (If that is possible) We were both emotionaly spent last night. We had talked about taking a surprise trip to Texas, that won't be happening now. (Unfortunately) There is still more that needs to be worked out...that I do know.
Husband has decided/I have decided to sever certain ties with someone for now. As in I will no longer be communicating with them. Personally I am not emotionally strong enough to handle a relationship with this person. Not now, anyways. This is hard for me.
We have decided to shut down our facebooks in light of the events that occured yesterday. I will be keeping my blog, since I can moderate comments easier...as in it is approved by me before it gets posted for all the world to see.
I am not a fan of people not liking me, of problems or contention. It just breeds more contention. But I am also smart enough to know when to let go. And I guess this is me letting go. For now.
3 comments:
I hear ya on that one!
He did just come home from a deployment...where he had to protect his fellow "brothers"...and since you are his wife....the LION come out of him. Very sexy!
It is fantastic that Scott supports you and I am happy to see you each learn more each day about one another. I understand you need to leave face book, but I will miss you there. Love you both and little monkey.
Your Daddy
It's so tough when you realize that you really CAN'T work things out with someone, because they just aren't willing/don't care. I don't know exactly what your situation is right now, but I know you'll get through it, especially with your hubby. =]
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