but I don't and probably never will.
I am currently, anxious, overwhelmed, excited, nervous, scared, happy, stressed and well just pick any feeling and insert into that sentence.
Husband called today. We are trying to get some things taken care of, before he gets home. Yet I have a list of things I am trying to get done before he gets home.
I made a comment about the first Saturday he is home i am going to be crazy busy. (I AM) I specifically did not plan anything that involves him sine I know how much he has to do the day after he gets back, and I know how much he wants to do before he goes back to his "normal" hours. Yet some how he heard We instead of I. He got snippy with me about planning his weekends again...
sooo I snapped. Not bad, just a little. I just got really frustrated that he expects so much of me in such a short time. Like i don't have a million things to do. Not to mention some of the things he wants done. I don't see as a priority. These things can wait, I want them to wait. I NEED them to wait.
It is so frustrating communicating with someone when there really is not a whole lot of communication. Waiting until he can finally call or get online...then trying to fit into the phone call or e-mail.
It is days like today where I wish it was May 1st. This month would be over and he would be home and we would be moved in to our own place and life would be good.
Ugh April, please end already.
Thanks.
3 comments:
Try and keep your chin up... :)
I used to be a Mil-Girlfriend, and it's a rough ride when they come home - transition to home is almost as rough as homecoming! I read somewhere on a Mil-Wife blog something which even I could relate to, 3 years later - Deployment is the best form of emotional blackmail, because no matter how rough it is for those at home, you can be sure it's 20 times worse for them... </3
I've just found your blog yesterday actually, and I have to say, I envy you somewhat - you're so young, but seem to have it all sussed out... (I'm only a year older than you, and can't quite comprehend being married with a monkey a year ago!)
Monkey is gorgeous, and I hope your move to married quarters goes well for you... Keep the chin up and if you ever want another bloggy friend (even one who's blog is very rarely updated!) then I'm your girl. :)
x
Laur
Thank you sometimes I forget to put into perspective how hard it was on him.
Thank you for your sweet comments. I love bloggy friends. Updated or not! :)
-Jess
Oh my - I actually updated my blog... Feel privilaged Jessica!! :) How are you feeling this morning then? Did you get much sleep in the end?
x
Lauren
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