April 16, 2010

I won't be excited.

I refuse to get excited.
If there is one thing I have learned about the military. Is nothing ever stays the same. Plans change constantly. So I refuse to get excited.
I refuse to be excited now. He is still not here.
I wont be excited this weekend as I realize this is the last weekend of the deployment...
I wont be excited any day up until that day...
Then on that day...
I wont be excited all day as I get my pedicure done. I wont be excited as I straighten my hair, put on my makeup or the hoop earrings that husband loves so much. I wont be excited as I pack Monkey's bag to help keep him happy as we wait.
I wont be excited as we are driving to base. I wont be excited as I am standing and standing and standing waiting to spot husband.
I wont be excited as I see the clock get minutes closer to the time.
I refuse to be excited until I see him and make contact with him.

Then as I am sitting next to him in the car and we are driving away and it is real...I will be excited.

Until then....no excitement...at all...well maybe just a little.

6 comments:

Anonymous said...

I'm trying not to be excited.

It's not working.

I suck at this game.

Jess said...

haha me too! I keep going from giddy, to emotional crying and freaking out because nothing is ready back to giddy...seriously i am a mess.

Anonymous said...

Oh ladies, of COURSE you're excited!! Are your misters coming home together?
x

Jess said...

No. Separate branches of the military.

Anonymous said...

yup, just seen that, Noel is an Army wife, and you're a USMC wifey... I was talking to MY soldier(I still claim "rights" to him, he's not dating, and I still care!) yesterday for the first time this month, and he's just got a new promotion/job... He's now that crazy fool that blows up devices... which I *think* is what Noel's other half does? I'm pretty stoked for him, proud and scared too! :) Thank goodness he'll be home training for the next 8months... I like this more than he does I think! :)

HellcatBetty said...

I suck at not being excited! I'm pretty sure our husbands are coming home at the same time (this is my last weekend of the deployment too) and I alternate between freaking out about what still needs to be done before he gets here and getting ridiculously giddy :)